Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Eddy Plays Catchup
broadway- the goo goo dolls
saturday in the park- chicago
play at your own risk-planet patrol
someone saved my life tonight- elton john
fallen & sweet surrender-sarah mclachlan
black balloon- the goo goo dolls
moonlight kiss- bap kennedy
say that you love me- no doubt
simple kind of life-no doubt <--sad <3
i belong to you- lenny kravitz
northern sky- nick drake
do the panic- phantom planet
seasons in the sun- terry jacks
waiting in vain-annie lennox
i'm your boogie man- kc and the sunshine band
courtesy of Stephanie
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Inside of Me.
I've been contemplating the title of Brand New's Album "The Devil and God are Raging Inside of Me." According to Wikipedia it's based on a conversation about Daniel Johnston. I know he is considered insane. I know I'm not. But those words ring true to me right now. I feel like my soul is a battlefield. It's a struggle between action and inaction, like the most evil force in the world is not hate, but the apathy that allows hate to act unchecked. It's like my mind is falling asleep and I have to stay awake. Like the whole world is in a dream and I wake up for a few moments, and then it all fades away and I'm asleep again.
That album just amazes me, there are so many lyrics in it that I jsut analyze with my life. Whatever inspired them to write those songs, I've lived through something similar, I can feel every word strike me at the center. I have learned that God is not who I think he is.
Sometimes I wonder if the Devil and God are two sides of the same coin. Can God exist without the devil? can good exist without bad? I don't think so. It's like they're the same person. Because if the existence of good is reliant on the existence of evil, then doesn't the creation of good create evil? if there was no evil there would be no good and vice versa, so doing a good act creates evil, and doing something evil creates good. Like you can't see the shade without light, and if there was no darkness, light could not exist, because it'd need to contrast off something. It'd all be blazing white.
But the reality of the matter is, absolutes don't exist. Everything is not ones and zeros, yes or no, on or off, they're lines, or circles, with different situations and outcomes. Is it wrong to lie? yes. To lie to save someone's life? no. What if you had to choose between killing one friend or another? Absolutes don't exist. At least not on a physical plain. Everything has its compromise. Even scientifically nothing ever reaches the limits of physical laws. I think we all really want absolutes to exist. We create them in art. We are both beautiful and hopeless in the fact that we seek perfection, and it is unattainable.
That album just amazes me, there are so many lyrics in it that I jsut analyze with my life. Whatever inspired them to write those songs, I've lived through something similar, I can feel every word strike me at the center. I have learned that God is not who I think he is.
Sometimes I wonder if the Devil and God are two sides of the same coin. Can God exist without the devil? can good exist without bad? I don't think so. It's like they're the same person. Because if the existence of good is reliant on the existence of evil, then doesn't the creation of good create evil? if there was no evil there would be no good and vice versa, so doing a good act creates evil, and doing something evil creates good. Like you can't see the shade without light, and if there was no darkness, light could not exist, because it'd need to contrast off something. It'd all be blazing white.
But the reality of the matter is, absolutes don't exist. Everything is not ones and zeros, yes or no, on or off, they're lines, or circles, with different situations and outcomes. Is it wrong to lie? yes. To lie to save someone's life? no. What if you had to choose between killing one friend or another? Absolutes don't exist. At least not on a physical plain. Everything has its compromise. Even scientifically nothing ever reaches the limits of physical laws. I think we all really want absolutes to exist. We create them in art. We are both beautiful and hopeless in the fact that we seek perfection, and it is unattainable.
Cellar Door.
Okay so I have a Myspace and a Facebook, so why make a blogger blog?
Well first off it's legit. This is made for blogging. It's real easy to format and add pics and stuff, and the page is dedicated to a blog, its not some hidden feature, it is the feature.
Second. It's not on my myspace or facebook on purpose. There are little kids that look up to me there. There are church people that will have negative opinions there. There are stupid people that wouldn't get it there. I really don't care what people think but I don't want a phone call in the middle of my evening from church people ready to have a full blown debate on the validity of the new testament. I don't give a fuck.
And third. This is a way for me to give people close to me trust, while at the same time allowing coincidence and fate do their little dance and let some unexpected people stumble on this site, or not, and that's the beauty of it.
Well first off it's legit. This is made for blogging. It's real easy to format and add pics and stuff, and the page is dedicated to a blog, its not some hidden feature, it is the feature.
Second. It's not on my myspace or facebook on purpose. There are little kids that look up to me there. There are church people that will have negative opinions there. There are stupid people that wouldn't get it there. I really don't care what people think but I don't want a phone call in the middle of my evening from church people ready to have a full blown debate on the validity of the new testament. I don't give a fuck.
And third. This is a way for me to give people close to me trust, while at the same time allowing coincidence and fate do their little dance and let some unexpected people stumble on this site, or not, and that's the beauty of it.
This Blog
Dear Reader,
Okay a few things about this blog. If I linked you to it it's because I trust you. I hope you do read it. If you're just stumbling upon it please enjoy it. I'm leaving it public, but I'm not linking it on any of my public profiles because this is really just something I want to share with people I think will appreciate it.
I hope you take a look around, comment on it, whatever, I'd like to use this as a way to develop my writing technique, and as such I need criticism. Be real, if something sounds weird or stupid say it. This is a sandbox, there's no real rules, just a place to be creative.
If you guys read it often and comment on it, I'll probably write on it more. But if I feel like I'm just talking to myself I'll probably just delete it or whatever. So lets see where this goes.
Your Blogger,
Eddy
Okay a few things about this blog. If I linked you to it it's because I trust you. I hope you do read it. If you're just stumbling upon it please enjoy it. I'm leaving it public, but I'm not linking it on any of my public profiles because this is really just something I want to share with people I think will appreciate it.
I hope you take a look around, comment on it, whatever, I'd like to use this as a way to develop my writing technique, and as such I need criticism. Be real, if something sounds weird or stupid say it. This is a sandbox, there's no real rules, just a place to be creative.
If you guys read it often and comment on it, I'll probably write on it more. But if I feel like I'm just talking to myself I'll probably just delete it or whatever. So lets see where this goes.
Your Blogger,
Eddy
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